Honest Scrap

So, I got another award… It was given to me by Steph at http://duckiebuckets.blogspot.com


Honest Scrap. It means that you tell it like it is and don’t hide anything…

So now, I have to say something… hmmm… but what?

Sometimes, I feel I try too hard. With everything. School, work, friends, boyfriend, family. I know I shouldn’t but I do. I have this weird need to please people. I don’t even know why. Who knows.

But then, I feel dumb, because after trying too hard, I get nothing in return (usually).

With school, at least, I know there’s an end product. My trying hard there is paying off. I just get frustrated. There were times I felt like dropping out …. But I stuck through it.

Work … I go above and beyond, and still get nothing. A raise every now and then, but I feel it’s only to keep me around. But, I work for a shitty company anyway who would rather make money than have employee loyalty.

With the boyfriend, it’s just I expect more than what I get, but it’s not a problem in this relationship as it was in others.

Friendship is where I feel I try the hardest and fail the hardest. It’s hard for me to make friends as it is. I don’t think many people like me, and I think I do better alone than in a group. But, I like having friends because often times, they’re the one’s who keep me sane. Now, I’m getting to the point where I just stopped caring, and if you don’t want to put in the same effort into our friendship … I’m done.