30DOT: Day 29

29) Something you hope to change about yourself. And why

There’s a lot of things I would like to change. I mean, I’m not a perfect specimen. I wish I were. But even aside from all the superficial things I would change there are still alot of things I’d change in a heartbeat.

Being super emotional about everything is one. Seriously. It’s a problem. I could be watching a television show and something sad happens and I cry. Like last night, I was watching GRΣΣK, and one of the character’s has an emotional break up. I cried along with him. (That sounds so lame reading it back to myself.) This just needs to change because crying at tv shows, and during scripted weddings cool.

Being super mean is also another one. I don’t know why I’m mean to people. I just am. I just get a bit of mean-girl-itis and take it to new levels each time I get it. Maybe it’s something all girls experience, but I notice that I end up being mean to people I care about, mostly. But then again, sometimes I just think they deserve it. Like yesterday when I told my friend I was going to hang out with some of my other friends, and that was going to include drinking at a bar. She’s 20, so she can’t get in. You’d think she would understand that we’re not hanging out because I’m going drinking with adults who are 21 or have fake IDs. So she was like “well if we’re not going to hang out, tell me” … so I responded with a “what don’t you get about me going to a bar? Oh, right, you can’t get in… and what don’t you understand about that?”. Either I should be nicer, or people just need to stop being stupid.

Thirty Days of Truth (1) Something you hate about yourself. (2)Something you love about yourself. (3) Something you have to forgive yourself for. (4) Something you have to forgive someone for. (5) Something you hope to do in your life. (6) Something you hope you never have to do. (7) Someone who has made your life worth living for. (8) Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit. (9) Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted. (10) Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know. (11) Something people seem to compliment you the most on. (12) Something you never get compliments on. (13) A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.) (14) A hero that has let you down. (letter) (15) Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it. (16) Someone or something you definitely could live without. (17) A book you’ve read that changed your views on something. (18) Your views on gay marriage. (19) What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics? (20)views on drugs and alcohol. (21) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do? (22) Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life. (23) Something you wish you had done in your life. (24) Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter) (25) The reason you believe you’re still alive today. (26) Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why? (27) What’s the best thing going for you right now? (28) What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do? (29) Something you hope to change about yourself. And why. (30) A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.