I think that what ever is going on between us should stop. Sure, the playfulness is fun and cute and whatever. But, do you really think the the emotional cheating is worth it? Do you think that it is fair to either of us, or the people we happen to be with?
I think we're both in lulls in our respective relationships that we're looking for bits of excitement else where. Though excitement is fun, excitement should not come from outside sources. Excitement should come from within. Within the boundaries of relationships we're both in.
I'm sure you feel the same way I do. I'm madly in love with the person I'm with. I'm sure you're madly in love with the person you're with too. I just feel I'm three steps ahead of him. And sometimes that's scary. Sometimes I feel he's five steps ahead of me, and that's even scarier. I don't know why this is happening, and I don't know what's happening with you and your partner.
It's not that I don't think you're cute/attractive/fun/funny/interesting ... it's that I think you're all those things and more. But I don't think it's fair for anyone. Maybe it's true that when you're in a relationship, you really can't make new friends of the opposite sex. And maybe friendships with members of the opposite sex change when you enter a romantic relationship.
Maybe this is all my fault. Maybe I should never open my big mouth and say stuff. Maybe it's no one's fault. Maybe I'm just a bad girlfriend. And a bad friend. Maybe I'm just a fail.
Sincerely.
2 comments:
Awww Lily! Don't leave me!
I don't think there's anything wrong with harmless flirting, unless it goes to a deeper level.
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