To whom it may concern:

Dear Sleep Gods, 


Who is in charge of my sleep schedule? 


I like that I can choose my own bedtime now, but seriously being up for 12+ hours is not fun. You may think it's fun to watch me toss and turn in my bed for hours, but I don't think it's particularly funny. I would like to be able to sleep more than 5 hours a day. 


If I got at least 6 hours of sleep per day, I think I would be able to function better. I would not fall asleep during my first class of the day. I would also probably have done enough to make me tired enough to fall asleep earlier. 


Do you think I need a new bed? New mattress pad? Or maybe all the aromatherapy crap isn't working? What a waste. 


But seriously, do you think that maybe tomorrow night, or sometime this week, you would let me have a good night's rest. I would really appreciate it. 


Love, 
Lily 

******

Plus day six of 30: 

6) Something you hope you never have to do.

There's so many things I would hate to do. I would hate to get: divorced, pick who lives and who dies, put a pet to sleep, sell my childhood home. 

But the one thing I would hate to have to do is "pull the plug" on my parents. 

I love my parents too much to even think about them being on their death bed. I know, as I've come to learn recently, that death is inevitable. It can come at any time for any of us. Yet, I think it would be a harder pill to swallow if I had to slowly watch either of my parents die. 

My dad has never expressed his feelings on the subject. My mom, on the other hand always reminds Piggy and me that if she were ever to be on life support, and there was no hope for recovery, that we should pull the plug as soon as possible. 

I can see where she's coming from. Why keep someone alive if they can't get better? It's unfair to them. We're prolonging their suffering. (I'm beginning to sound like my mom here). 

Though, I know someday, they're both going to kick the bucket... I hope that my siblings and I don't have to decided to take our parents off of life support. I know I would not be able to decide if it's right or not - even though it's really not up to me. 

Thirty Days of Truth (1) Something you hate about yourself. (2)Something you love about yourself. (3) Something you have to forgive yourself for. (4) Something you have to forgive someone for. (5) Something you hope to do in your life. (6) Something you hope you never have to do. (7) Someone who has made your life worth living for. (8) Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit. (9) Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted. (10) Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know. (11) Something people seem to compliment you the most on. (12) Something you never get compliments on. (13) A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.) (14) A hero that has let you down. (letter) (15) Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it. (16) Someone or something you definitely could live without. (17) A book you’ve read that changed your views on something. (18) Your views on gay marriage. (19) What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics? (20)views on drugs and alcohol. (21) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do? (22) Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life. (23) Something you wish you had done in your life. (24) Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter) (25) The reason you believe you’re still alive today. (26) Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why? (27) What’s the best thing going for you right now? (28) What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do? (29) Something you hope to change about yourself. And why. (30) A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself .