30 DOT: Day 14 & 15

Lately, I've just been slacking when it comes to posting on here. Mostly because of school and work. No time to do anything fun. So, maybe I'll speed up this 30 Days of Truth process and do two days at a time. 

(But not really.)

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Day 14: A hero that has let you down.

I only really have one real hero. And she has never let me down. So to write a letter to said hero, telling her she has let me down would be a lie. And yeah. 

So Lily's hero = Not a let down (yet). 

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Day 15: Something or someone you couldn't live without, because you've tried living without it.

I can name many things. 

iPod, Cell phones, Computers, a bed, high heeled shoes, etc. Seriously, life without these things sucked. Especially life without high heeled shoes... trust me. I'm like 2 feet tall in a sea of girls who are 5'5 or taller. High heeled shoes were a MUST. 

But let me get a little sappy.

 I will forever have to say that Ivan is the person I cannot live without. I've tried it. It sucked. Would never want to go back to being without him.

For lack of better words... it sucked. 

No one ever made me feel the way he does. In all kinds of ways. 

I even think about it when we hit a rough patch, and we get into the most ridiculous arguments... 

A couple of weeks ago, I had a bad feeling. I've had this feeling before. And every time I've had this feeling, I ignored it and would find out that who ever I was dating was cheating on me. 

I had this feeling for a while, but I just kept ignoring it. Then one day, my friend Sam called me telling me she had a dream about my drowning and Ivan was off with another girl... and a shark was going to eat me. 

Neither of these things had anything to do with each other. But it made me ask him straight out. "Are you cheating one me?" 

I got looks of confusion and concern. Where was I getting this from... And I had no answer for him. For a while, I thought he was going to end it there, because it was obvious I was having some sort of trust issue. But in the heart to heart we had, I learned that he's in it forever. 

Excitingness... Stay tuned for wedding info. 

Thirty Days of Truth (1) Something you hate about yourself. (2)Something you love about yourself. (3) Something you have to forgive yourself for. (4) Something you have to forgive someone for. (5) Something you hope to do in your life. (6) Something you hope you never have to do. (7) Someone who has made your life worth living for. (8) Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit. (9) Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted. (10) Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know. (11) Something people seem to compliment you the most on. (12) Something you never get compliments on. (13) A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.) (14) A hero that has let you down. (letter) (15) Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it. (16) Someone or something you definitely could live without. (17) A book you’ve read that changed your views on something. (18) Your views on gay marriage. (19) What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics? (20)views on drugs and alcohol. (21) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do? (22) Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life. (23) Something you wish you had done in your life. (24) Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter) (25) The reason you believe you’re still alive today. (26) Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why? (27) What’s the best thing going for you right now? (28) What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do? (29) Something you hope to change about yourself. And why. (30) A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself .